Stressors

So, Matt has his first flight in a jet tomorrow.  The stress level is noticeably amplified around here.  Matt is obviously worried about effectively combating the motion sickness thing, and I got my first taste of his pilot schedule this weekend...which I'm definitely not loving.  We have probably spent a total of about 4h with him since Friday night, and he has been studying/texting/scheduling/phoning/shopping/etc. for at least 50% of that time.  I know I am going to have to find a way to deal with it, but it is definitely hard for me to accept that he is going to be so noninvolved with the family for the next year or so.  Being that I will never have the opportunity to know how I would handle pilot training, I have to guard against my tendency to project how I balanced nursing school with parenthood into how I wish things were going to be around here.

A large part of the added stress (on top of what other students/spouses might encounter) is obviously coming from my desire to send the girls to the local (private) Montessori school, increasing our expenses and adding about an hour total of driving/gas time (15min each way) to our daily routine (as opposed to just walking my oldest to the kindergarten at the end of our block)--and necessitating me to work.  Further compelling me toward employment is my desire to not let the past 2 years of nursing/related education go to waste.  Things change quickly in the healthcare field and I certainly don't want my knowledge to go stale before I have a chance to use it.  Part of me sometimes wonders if it might have just been more practical for me to have gotten a part time job to help cover the bills during Matt's ASCP experience, because then I would a) have 2 yrs' recent work history under my belt and b) not have an almost-license sitting on my shoulder, begging me to do something with it.

I certainly don't like to complain, but it is also my intention to make this blog an accurate reflection of our pilot training experience, and as such, it is only fair to include the stressors!  Which have been flaring up for both of us this weekend, making everything seem a whole lot worse, lol.  I am sure in a day or two, things will subside--particularly after Matt finds out what he is in for as far as handling jet Gs and acrobatics go--and then things will be back to "normal".  :o)